High Heels, 1969


When I was twelve years old, I saved up all my pocket money for a pair of dusty-pink suede shoes I admired every day, as I walked past the shoe shop on my way to and from school. I had always worn brown or black, functional, unfeminine shoes before, but something prompted me to invest in these pretty shoes. I wanted to look like a girl for the first time in my life. Before, I had always been the one in jeans and a lumpy sweater, halfway up a tree with leaves stuck in her hair!

Finally, the day came when I had just enough money saved up, and I shyly entered the shop. The only preparations I had made, apart from the money itself, hidden carefully at the bottom of my jeans pocket in an old, brown envelope, was that, inside my school shoes my feet were bare of their regulation grey socks! The shoe seller lent me a pair of pop-socks to wear, and I slipped on the beautiful shoes. First time in a one-inch heel, I felt as though I was as tall as a house, and I tottered round the shoe shop, trying to look as if I’d been born in heels.

I didn’t wear the shoes for the bus journey home. I knew I’d have to practice walking in them, so as not to wobble and look ridiculous. With a younger sister who delighted in mocking my every gesture, that was a prime consideration! Just as I entered the house, I suddenly felt a strange tickling sensation between my legs. I ran upstairs, aware that I was feeling rather faint, the shoe bag still clutched in my hand. I locked myself in the bathroom and sat down. Sure enough, there was the tell-tale little red stain I had thought would never appear.

—Jan Tchamani, Birmingham, England

Jan is a college teacher and the project leader of Red Tent (Heart of England).


10 Comments, Comment or Ping

  1. Michaela

    wow this is a very cute story! i love it and its great that you shared your personal story with us! thank you

    May 11th, 2009

  2. R.A.S

    thats a good storry

    July 1st, 2009

  3. Jordan

    That’s cute!
    I want to buy this book now! :)

    July 8th, 2009

  4. i wanna buy the book….. yep. really want it. i love this story.

    July 11th, 2009

  5. Sukanya

    Hey tis story is sooooo nice and …………Miss Jan………..if u dont mind……do u still have those pink shoes

    July 12th, 2009

  6. Dani

    That is a good story i think the show were cute

    July 26th, 2009

  7. chiniqua

    thats sooooo cute i know u were feeling more special n u started

    August 3rd, 2009

  8. Haley

    um i didnt really like this story it was kind of hard to read and it dosnt really relate to much to people

    August 10th, 2009

  9. Sara

    I loved this story. It’s like you decided to be a woman just as you became one without knowing it. I’ve had my period since July this year. Kinda put a damper on the Las Vegas trip with my bro… I hate my period SOOOOOOOO much. It’s gross and sticky and smells really bad. And at school it’s so awkward because you feel so self concious and stuff. Though it’s not that bad on the days I have P.E. because I get to change clothes on those days.

    November 17th, 2009

  10. Kaitlyn

    cute little story :)
    you still have those shoes?

    November 23rd, 2009